77 days!

77 days is how long we waited for our darling angel to be announced into our lives. 77 Days of anticipation, tears, desperation, frustration and hope. Hope that life is good and fair and that somehow you have done enough to deserve that little child and the blessing of being called a mommy.

We are having a huge family gathering this weekend with Kobus`s dad turning 70 and our niece turning 17 and everyone travelling from far and wide to attend. This week have been especially stressful in getting everything organised and cooking, baking and working in between. Had a bit of a meltdown last night and just felt like an overall demon. Growling at everyone and nothing going according to plan. O yes, and I had a lady die in my driveway yesterday so all and all not a great week for me.

Anyway so at 10 past 4 when I saw an unknown number popped up on my screen I nearly screened the call as I was not in the mood for insurance, a cell phone contract or faster ADSL. Yet, I took the call and it was our social worker. The line was very bad and we nearly misunderstood each-other about a freaking cupcake but she called me back. Turns out that Janke (Mikayla as her BM is calling her) was born on 21 August and that we can take her home on the 22nd of October 2012.

Well I cried, big crocodile tears. That is after I screeched. Kobus nearly rolled the car in shock of the noises coming from me. Having heard the one sided conversation and witnessing my sobbing he pieced the whole thing together and started to cry too. Huge, sparkly tears. I was so overcome with love for him and that he was so happy for us too and that he actually showed how he was feeling. I can not begin to describe the way I felt. There was a whole lot of nothingness but also lots of tears. Was it shock? Maybe. Disbelief? Definitely!

I could not believe that the wait is finally over. I could not believe that I could actually cut the price tags off all the clothes. I could not believe the blessing that we received and that we have been granted the biggest wish of our lives.

Well all hell broke loose when we started calling the family and the next few hours were a whirlwind of calls, BBM`s and SMMS`s. It is so surreal for me at the moment. So many happy people out there tonight.

The only information I have is that she has huge Al Debo eyes and that she laughs from her belly. Oh and that she is an angel. On Wednesday we get all her information and we finally get to see how she looks. Going to be a very looooooooong wait. 

So watch this space!